Letter from The Lone Wolf

Some day I will die and I am not afraid to get there.
The feeling of being unwanted all my life has been killing me softly.
I am not lying but as long as I am alive, I am in this moment
I appreciate everyone in my life and even when I was pushed away
I am only living my life the best way I know how to live
Even if it is by doing everything wrong and being loved by only me

From: The Lone Wolf

Stuck

I'm stuck.....
IN reality
Finding a job
With no one
& it looks hopeless
Sum reason I don't quit
But I'm still here
With nothing of my own
I owe money I don't have
& Finding jobs I don't want
I want new experiences
&when I try to find them
I'm Stuck....
Dealt a confusing hand
Flaws are showing and
People are watching
I think it maybe time
To realize there is no one
For me to relate to
When I look in the mirror
I wonder to myself sumx
Where did I go wrong
Was it Drug? Sex? Music?
Or just hanging with the wrong crowd
I see people pass by &
I say Hello, but they still pass.
I see my classmates and
Doing great moving forward
& I also wonder Why can't I
I have a beautiful girl
I made her & she's the only accomplishment
Yet she isn't in my possession
I feel like I failed in some way
I keep wondering but
Either way I'm still....

Existence

I wish insecurity didn't even exist.
It corrupts valuable time wasted in the mist.
Look into the mirror & see you exists,
Because when I look at you I feast.
My hunger has been killing me,
For you been in my fantasy &
I thought you couldn't exist.
Here you are standing before me
Feeding my knowledge that you Exist.
I hold you so close to me,
Because I can't believe reality.
It's like my eyes are playing tricks.
My insecurity is heighten & needs 2 B fixed.


By:Julie-Ann D.

Day off

Today is one of my days off from working at 'The Bay'. You polly know when you work too much you work in your sleep sometimes too. I remember when I was working at 'Timmys' I use to dream about the never ending coffee jug and the line of 'Tim Hortons' cups moving on a counter. So werid how dreams are sometimes eh! I am 1st Nations person and I know that dreams could mean so much more in ones' life. I not too sure if I believe that dreams could tell you something about your life, but certainly tell you something about yourself as a person maybe. I'm trying to say as a person you have certain goals in life; wheather it's becoming famous or just taking the stairs instead of the elevator, And as anyone sleeps it's really just your brain trying to put your goals in motion. For example: As a woman I'd like to loose weight to stay in shape before the next girl, so I dreamt once that I saw myself thin and was satisfied with it 'cuz I wanted to do me. Anyways while I was awake I do things to keep fit like eat relatively good and excercised. It's all about focus and detrimination while doing spirit fingers.

My first Blog....
Well I can't really sleep very well again." I wonder if I have something wrong with me? "Is it really so easy to be scraed to wonder this very question?....I mean really?!? I'm sure there is a lot of other things wrong in this world that would give us the very fact, that being scared of something that is unknown; is really something to be scared about. I mean you can't see through out my whole body to know or wonder if there is something wrong with me. We have doctors to tell us if there is something wrong with us. Their the ones that go to school to tell someone, that they dont know personally, that there is something wrong with us. I suppose were to trust these people with the verdict they give us. Like they know us inside out. CHee!